Marie Kondo encourages you to envisage life after Kondoing, but it's the vision of life after Barry that eludes me really.
But every now and then, like this morning early, I move about the house doing some ordinary thing and finding almost everything in its place and working - there's a pleasure, a fluidity, a calm, a 'this is how it's meant to be' feeling. A sense that my house and garden environment is supporting me rather than that I work to maintain it.
The feeling is fleeting, but it sends me back to her book to help me keep going and to think about and refine the way I see my future..
When it is too wet to garden, as it is today, a few leaves and flowers around the place give me my green 'fix'.