Simply.. courage....

5/1/2020

It takes a little, sometimes a lot. of courage to make a new start, write on a fresh page. paint on a blank canvas.

Today I slowly took down the Christmas decorations - it always makes me a little sad. I had a very comfortable and cosy time preparing for the festive season - it felt like a time to indulge myself and relax, to take it easy, to just be. I am replacing the Christmas things with other winter decorations - I still want that hygge feeling and the weather is dull and wet and the days are still short and dark.

I have some big plans for 2020 and I'm feeling a bit nervous about them today. Will I find the energy? Have I over committed myself? What if....Self doubt creeps in - no, rushes in!

I couldn't think quite how to finish this post, and as I was scrolling down through the categories to decide which one to put it under, I realised some answers to my fears were in there.

Let me explain. I started from the top of the list -

Live Simply - well yes, I need to remember that is what I am trying to do. That grounds me a little.
Simply Beautiful. I do have some beautiful ideas for 2020.
Simply Bin It. Could I just throw some of my fearful thoughts in the bin?
Simply Chill. Yes, I need to chill by doing something else for a bit (I listened to Private Passions BBC Radio 3)
Simply Christmas. Well I am saying goodbye to Christmas 2019 which was lovely, so of course I feel a bit sad.
Simply Do A Good Deed. I could distract myself by thinking of one....

By the time I had got down the list I was already feeling better!

Perhaps this strategy would work for you if you need to change your mood/restore your confidence/find a way out of a mild panic?

I'd love to think so...(the list is on the sidebar).

I finally filed the post under Simply Live, because that is what we must do with 2020.

Live it to the full.

10 Comments

cath

6/1/2020 09:39:04 am

Live life (2020) to the full. What a beautiful and inclusive conclusion coming from some courageous inner work.

Freda

6/1/2020 02:21:38 pm

It's quite scary just admitting that you are scared!!

Susan

7/1/2020 09:42:10 am

My thoughts are:

It's natural to feel scared at times, and there's no shame in admitting it. Sometimes it's founded in real threats of varying severity and sometimes in imagined threats.
In the first case, finding out information & taking action can help. In the second, identifying the origin & reassuring/comforting oneself can help.
Some threats cannot be entirely dealt with & then, it's a matter of coming to terms with how to live well, with them present.

Myself, I am mindful of to whom I would disclose feelings of vulnerability: I'm believe that your friends here, are a safe group to disclose to.

People have, rightly, mentioned your strength.
I think that living life, with awareness, takes strength.
And it takes courage to choose to be strong and to keep on doing so day after day.
So, thumbs up to you for mustering your courage, and in doing so, encouraging us, too.

Grace

6/1/2020 11:29:47 am

My curiosity is getting the better of me Freda, but I'm sure you will unveil your projects in due course. I have no big plans for 2020 as yet.

Freda

6/1/2020 02:22:18 pm

Any long distance walks Grace?

Mary

6/1/2020 02:10:42 pm

Will have to do some revisiting of your listings. Looking forward to hearing about your 2020...for more than one reason. :) Looking forward to my own 2020.

Freda

6/1/2020 02:22:47 pm

Fun times coming up I am sure!

julia

6/1/2020 03:42:38 pm

Freda, i don’t have your actual post handy. But at some point one summer (I know it was summer, because i was at the lake.), you posted a haiku, or similar...saying that you had “just enough” and then listed several items...that has stuck with me ever since! Whenever i am wondering about my life, how i am coping, what next, how to do it all...i come back to the question that your post ignited in my mind: “what is enough?” It rules my life and my choices...in a very positive way!!

Freda

7/1/2020 04:15:09 pm

How lovely Julia. Thank you for telling me that! (Enough is a wonderful word.)

Freda

7/1/2020 03:36:54 pm

To Susan

Definitely imaginary right now Susan! People's strength in the face of real threats often amazes me - I think especially of the fires in Australia and it puts my own fears into perspective. Love that you shared your thoughts here!

Simply.. courage....

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