Today with an announcement that easing of the lockdown may be imminent here in Scotland, I mean it in the sense that things may be getting better! It can't come soon enough. The strain is beginning to tell.
Normally pretty disciplined about what I eat, I binged yesterday on treats and fell into a 'sugar -sleep' on the sofa in the afternoon. It's all too easy to start thinking What does it matter?
What does it matter if I write a blog post tonight or leave it till tomorrow? What does it matter if I wash my hair today, if I put off changing the bed for one more day, if I don't bother cooking tonight....If I skip the death tally today.
Perhaps what matters for me right now is to find sweet things to do for myself that don't involve sugar!
Pick little posies of lily of the valley to put beside the bed
and in the bathroom. Check.
Light a candle. Check.
Have a daytime bath. Check.
Send a loving message to someone else who is alone. Check.
Wear something different. Check.
Trivial perhaps, but also quite important. As so often it's the little things that make a difference and help us maintain our equilibrium.
What matters to you right now?
A change in the weather has brought me in from the garden - the good weather and the garden have kept me going for weeks - so although I'll continue my survey of the garden design I'll also take a fresh look at my sheltering space... home.