I asked some questions in this post and was most interested in your answers...
I think perhaps passion is in large part commitment, and hope that by choosing to commit I can revive the passion and enthusiasm I once felt for most things I did (teaching, patchwork and quilting, gardening and landscape design, painting..).
I am working madly in the garden having agreed to opening it for charity in a moment of nostalgia for the fun Barry and I had doing this over a number of years.
On my own it just felt like hard work.
Remembering that old 'act as if' adage, I wondered if I acted as if I was still passionate about it - that is if I did the things I did when I was passionate about it - gave it my full attention, did the research, sowed the seeds, made the decisions, tried different plant combinations, really loved and looked after the plants, put in the hours....would the passion return?
Bereavement it seems to me, takes away the extra energy, the surplus of energy a person needs to feel these feelings of enthusiasm.
I pay for help with grass and hedge cutting (must sell more paintings), Jennie helps me plan and divide and plant, friends offer help and I accept gladly and slowly, slowly my interest and pleasure in it are returning.
Watch this space.
I am watching the dawn again! I was so tired from gardening I went to bed really early and here I am at 5am on what looks like being another good day....